[Stephanie Bouder]

I was baptized with the Holy Spirit first and He put it on my to be water baptized, which I understood to be just an act of obedience and of no other spiritual significance than that. Although, that was scheduled out so far that I didn’t want to wait that long, so I said, “God, I don’t know if I can do this, but if I am made a high priest in You, I can’t see why I couldn’t.” And I baptized myself in the bathtub a month before it was scheduled to happen in the church.
I thought how it happened with me is how I should expect it to happen with Jessica. (Holy Spirit first) But now I am seeing that may not necessarily be the case? Poor Jessica has been waiting for a big green light from God. Now I think I have guided her wrongly and have created resentment in her about it. She sees God working in everyone else’s life and wants that, too. Ugh… help!